To truly be enlightened , inspired, you have to be completely indulged in the darkness.
And in that case, I am certainly an inspired being.
My life has been clouded since the moment it began,
an environment wreaking of death and sin was the setting for me to become a man.
no warnings given, god had already had my life layed out and written.
He wanted me to suffer so I can decide to write my own fucking ending,
and this is the message that I'm sending,
You can lose it all and still have the will to live
You can write your own fate no matter what the setting is.
See I can be something great thats why they want me to give up now, because it'd be better for them to see me fall down.
Where a every great life of success has a fee.
and the cost of death is paid rapidly.
And any kid of color's chances are less likely.
If you think differently then please inspire me.
I've realized life is just one big fucking mess,
and if this is just my start then just try to imagine what I Can do next.
still, some cannot grasp the concept,
of what its like to be at the bottom,
trying by any means to survive.
To the people who were born with everything given to them in theyre life.
you think life is easy, try to live a day as me, live a day working, live a day hurting, live a day uncertain live a day fucking learning what is to be me.
we'll see what you see then,
your perspective will change quickly.
And learn that your life ending tomorrow is a very much a live possibility.
and to anyone whose every doubted, spoke a word down about it,
you fuel the very fire that burns in my chest.
that pushes me to be the best.
all the doubt helps me separate the real from the fake,
helps learn just how much I can truly take
and the light in the dark I can truly see.
I swear on my mothers grave I will know what it's like to truly be happy.